Don't go away

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 14:29:48 GMT

Honestly, I couldn't stand the Batam trip. The beginning of the trip was already terrible for my family because the system at the Immigration was disorganised. It wasn't systematic at all & everyone was pushing their way through. My baby girl was already at the front of the line with us & she was asked to queue all over again right at the back just because she was below 15. In the first place, my dad was queuing up with her. Secondly, there was no sign at all saying that children below 15 have to queue somewhere else. Thirdly, why the heck did they let those other kids go and didn't allow my sister to go through. We were already so bloody irritated & it caused us to be late. Oh, how can I forget the fact that Singaporeans were so kiasu rushing in even though their ferry was at a later timing and they didn't even allow the rest of us to go through.

The only highlight of the trip was that we were being escorted by the police all the way to the hotel & to the mosque. Oh yes, the reason why we went to Batam was because a mosque in my maternal grandfather's name was built there. There's one in Singapore already & it's called Masjid Salim Mattar and they just built the other one there in Batam. Therefore we were there for the opening ceremony.

As you can tell, I cannot be bothered with the Batam trip because I didn't enjoy myself. The trip made me see the bad side of my relatives as well as the other human beings. I couldn't stand how selfish those people were & how they only cared about themselves. The only thing that I liked about the trip was the fact that I had A&W (yummy!) and seafood. I didn't mind seeing my close relatives there because they made things better for me even though they were much older than us. I think I get along with old people and young kids better than those people my age. I learnt a valuable lesson. I don't want to go to Batam anymore. I'm having a stomachache till now which I think is caused by the food, help anyone?

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 03:51:03 GMT

Just last week my parents, baby girl & I headed up to Cameron Highlands for a couple of days. We were supposed to head to Bangkok but due to unforseen circumstances, my parents decided to go to Cameron Highlands instead. The rest of my siblings and bro-in-law had to work so it was just the four of us. It was an 8 hours bus ride & I was bored to tears in the bus. I couldn't sleep well so I spent most of the time stoning & reminiscing. Bleah, shut up I couldn't help it.

Upon arrival, we headed to the hawker centre for local breakfast before checking in to the hotel. It was effing cold there & I should have listened to my paranoid mom about bringing a much thicker sweater. During our entire stay at Cameron Highlands, we stayed at Strawberry Park Resort which was high up on the hill and secluded. I swear the roads were dangerous I tell you. There were sharp bends throughout & there were no barriers at all.

So what did we do upon arrival? We camwhore, of course. The toilet was hugeeeeeeeee. I'm sorry but I have an obsession with toilets. Even in Singapore, I will never step in the toilet if it's dirty. My close friends and family should know that by now because I'm even willing to control it if the toilet's dirty.

On the very 1st day, we joined the Agro Tour. We were brought to the tea plantation, vegetable farm & etc. Honestly, I can't really remember what we did on the 1st day because I was sooooo damn tired & all I wanted is to get back to the hotel and sleep. Ohh, I remember we had steamboat for dinner & a whole lot of strawberries : P

Anyway, look at my dad! His poses are soooo damn mentel! : P I have a couple of pictures of him grinning like a small kid : D

(By the way, updating this is tiring!)

Anyway, on the second day at 645 am we went 6666ft above ground level just to watch the sunrise. Unfortunately, the mist blocked the sunrise and all we could see was the blue, blue sky but it was seriously worth it. Beautiful, ain't it? I have even more pics of this but that you should go to my Friendster & see for yourself. I don't mind doing this again even though it was soo, so cold! I think this was definitely the highlight of the trip to Cameron H'lands.

Afterwhich, we went for a Nature Tour whereby we went up to the highest peak of the mountain, trekking in the mossy forest, rose centre & etc. For me, I think I enjoyed the mossy forest the most because we actually had to go into the forest. It was muddy and everything & you should have seen the state of my Converse sneakers!

Anyway, that lil boy there is sooo damn brave. I was already shaking because we were so high up & if we make the wrong move, we'll fall all the way down but that boy there was climbing everywhere!

It was a really good trip. I enjoyed myself but it would have been better if the rest of my siblings were there. Honestly, I do not mind heading up to Cameron H'lands once again.

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 16:21:57 GMT

This boy here has proven himself countless of times to be the sweetest guy that anyone can have. I have no idea how many times he has seen me upset over the smallest things ever & he never failed to give me a hug or two upon seeing me upset. Two weeks ago on the day that YodaTan flew off, I remember meeting him thrice on that day. I remember bursting into tears at his workplace & having him wipe away my tears even though he was shocked. I don't think I've met anyone like him who is willing to meet me a couple of times a day just to check up on me. I've been seeing him everyday of my life & honestly, I can get really used to this. It breaks my heart seeing him so hurt & having to be strong even though I know he's breaking apart inside :( Sigh love, I wished I knew what to do to make the situation better for you.

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 14:45:00 GMT

FUCKEN BUS JUST HAD TO TERBALIK IN MALAYSIA WHEN MY SISTER & BRO-IN-LAW WERE INSIDE. THANK GOODNESS THEY'RE ALIVE & SUFFERED ONLY ABRASIONS. GRR. BLOODY BUS DRIVER.

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 14:29:13 GMT

I thought I could get one last hug before you leave. I wished you didn't have to go. I'll miss you love & I can't wait for you to return home.

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 03:59:31 GMT

"Don't say it as often as I should
But I really want it to be heard
When I say I love you that's for good
You have my word
That day after day after all
I will always be true
That's a promise I make to you"

Happy New Year : D

Sat, 29 Dec 2007 13:46:05 GMT

2007 was definitely a rough year for me & I cannot wait to see what's in store for me in 2008.

I remember saying that I lost faith in love & relationships. I was totally commitment phobic & I even had people telling me that I run away as soon as things get really serious. I did silly things, some I wished I could take it back but well it's all in the past & I need to move on. I made friends with a couple of guys; players, clingy ones and etc & it made me realise that I already have the silly boy in my life who makes me happy. You have no idea how happy I am with him around & how many times I've smiled upon reading his messages & just being in his presence. I admit that with him in NS, it's such a huge test of our relationship/friendship (i have no idea what to call it) but we're both handling it well. I'm happy, he's happy & everyone else is happy that I've found my happiness and that he's treating me really well :)

In 2007, school started for me once again. I definitely miss TP though as well as the people there. With SIM being a private university, I had others especially relatives of mine going up to me, asking me why I'm not in a local university or why I didn't choose to study overseas. I admit that I didn't study as hard as I should back then in TP & I really regret. As for not studying overseas, it's a personal choice. Even though I know I can join YodaTan in Perth next year to study law, I choose not to. Being in UOL-SIM is definitely not as easy as you think it is. I've had many people telling me that just because I'm in a private university, it should be easier than the rest but trust me based on personal experience & feedback given by lecturers, it's definitely not that easy. I'm trying really hard & we'll see if my effort pays off when I take my exams in May.

As for my family, well this year we definitely faced a lot of hardship. I think it was in year 2007 that we received bad news about my mother's condition but everything's good now. I was a terrible daughter back then & you have no idea how many arguments I had with my parents, especially about my attitude towards everything. I was pretty rebellious when I was younger but I've stopped & I've been trying really hard to be better daughter & sister. More than a month ago, my eldest sister finally got married & you have no idea how crazy it was having to prepare for the wedding. Everything went well though & I'm extremely touched that those people came down to my sister's wedding. Things are better now with the family. We're all getting along really well.

A couple of months back, I remember being obsessed over my weight & even up till now. I remember not eating & constantly exercising just because I felt fat. I guess the comments given by my relatives got to me & I have to admit that I became bulimic. No, no one knows about my condition except my youngest sister & those people who read this. My baby girl now makes sure that I finish off my food & that I eat 3 meals a day. I'm still obsessed over my weight though & I try my very best to eat but well I can't seem to consume much food anymore.

Friends; well honestly I have no comments about it. I know who are my true friends who will always be there for me whenever I need them & I'm thankful, especially to those who constantly check up on me ever since my parents left for Haj.

So, that's my 2007 then. Happy new year in advance & I hope 2008 will be a better year for all of us :)

Mon, 24 Dec 2007 12:19:11 GMT

I miss my boy terribly. Reply my message already, damnit.

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 13:59:38 GMT

Dear God, please keep my parents safe. Last I heard from my dad a couple of hours ago, my mom had an asthmatic attack there & she has to be treated. Sigh, she has not had asthma for many years now.

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 09:17:37 GMT

I think I have an issue. Everytime I eat, I'll always end up feeling guilty & I end up either going for long runs or not eating at all after that. This is bad, I don't seem to enjoy food anymore.

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 12:52:58 GMT

Part 2

On the 4th November itself, it was the wedding ceremony for our side of the family, held at Serangoon CC. Please don't ask why it was being held there when we stay at Pasir Ris. Anyway, there were definitely minor glitches like how my sister & I as well as my grandmother only arrived at 1110am because there were so many things not done early in the morning.

What can I say, what can I say. It was definitely a grand affair. You have no idea how much work was put into this & how stressed up all of us were. My mother had sleepless nights worrying about the wedding & me, well I have been extremely grouchy because there were so many things needed to be done. You know I'm terribly sorry for being grouchy but thank you, for always cheering me up especially with that phone call the night before the wedding & for wanting to send food all the way just for me.

Ahhh, that little girl on the left is so damn adorable. I have so many pictures of her! : D

Everything went well & it was great receiving fantastic comments regarding the wedding ceremony. Later on in the evening, we had a wedding reception & it was definitely a blast :D On that day itself, it was also my mom's birthday so we surprised her with a birthday song when she was on stage even though she alrready warned us not to : )

Okay so we had a couple of flower girls & pageboys. We were panicking because we thought it wouldn't happen because they were small kids after all but everything turned out well. The kids enjoyed themselves & they even followed instructions : ) Food was extremely good even though I only managed to eat the Shish Kebab because everthing else was finished.

We had a live band & even a special performance by the groom as well as surprises here and there : D

Thank you from the bottom of my heart to those people who came down. I didn't expect a few of them to come & those who I expected to turn up didn't turn up. Oh well. I was extremely touched that he came down with his family & I should have taken the initiative to ask him for help when we were transporting the door gifts. & thank you to my close cousins for lending a helping hand. Next time, we will not wear high heels because it is seriously not funny standing & walking about from morning till night. Family always comes first : )

So now that my eldest sister's married, who's next? : p

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 11:00:10 GMT

Part 1

After preparing for a couple of months, the event which was held in a span of 3 days has finally ended. There were minor glitches here and there but everything else went on smoothly. It definitely feels weird having my brother--in-law around because I'm so used to being around girls at home but everything's good. We get along really well & this is just something we need to get used to. I have close to 900 pictures but I'll just put up whatever I can.

On the 3rd November, we had a Maulud & Berinai held at home. It was pretty much a chaotic event as it involved mainly the ladies & you know how these ladies can be :D

I'm extremely lazy so I'm going to upload only a few pictures alright : D

So on that day, it was filled with extremely good food & I had to stop myself from eating just so that I could fit into my outfit on Sunday. Unfortunately, I gave in to my temptation.

On 4th November, it was the solemnization ceremony itself. I cannot stand the fact that a few of the relatives were arguing on such a joyous occasion over something ridiculous at somebody else's event. Anyway, everything went well & they're now legally married :D

In the afternoon, we went over to the guy's side to bertandang because the guy's side held theirs on Saturday whereas ours on Sunday. I swear the flower girls & the pageboys on his side were so damn adorable :D

I swear I have a lack of hardworking male cousins with initiative. Anyway, that's beside the point. Second part will be in the next entry : D

Mon, 12 Feb 2007 14:15:10 GMT

fuck it, seriously.

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 05:50:18 GMT

i'm finally posting an entry here.

what can i say? things are getting really complicated & i'm really getting tired of things.

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 06:27:11 GMT

woohoo, i'm at work right now :) it feels good to have two working terminals in the room, which means both of us can work & log on to msn at the same time. right at this point of time, i'm alone in the office. pfft, because yodatan went to court with the lawyer. i swear i'm sooooo bored of reading cases & i have so many research stuff to do which involves the need to read cases. rawr.

anyway, things are definitely getting better with the ex-boyfriend. we managed to talk things out but well, things will never be like before. he doesn't seem to have as much time for me anymore, not even as a friend. however, i have to accept that fact because we're not together anymore & i can't expect him to be there for me like before. oh well.

emo songs are being played on radio right now. pfft.

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 13:43:15 GMT

i swear that things are complicated.

why must i still love you & that i can't forget about you.
everywhere i go, i'm being reminded of you.

never leave your heart alone;

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 16:22:43 GMT

I seriously think that livejournal's much more interesting as compared to blogspot.

I might be itchy and close down my blog on blogspot and continue blogging here. However, blogspot has a lot of memories for me and most of my friends do not have an lj account.

My blog on blogspot's filled up with lots of depressing entries lately due to you-know-what. However, I'm unable to actually write about how I really feel there due to the fact that the public will be able to read it. Hopefully, I'll be able to express myself more here :)

Oh well, we'll see how things goes.

It's half-locked. Most of my entries will only be read by friends only. Add to read please :)

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 15:45:35 GMT

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